I should of learned

September 22, 2008 - Monday
Daddy Tried to warn me Current mood: confused Category: Life
"lily be carefull, he is just another guy" I remember trying to explain to my dad why he was different, why he wasnt going to break my heart, he was sweet, kind, respectful and many more. how could this be the same man that would break my heart after all we were friends, I was raised to believe that friends don't lie to each other, and everyone deserves a second chance. what i never learned was what if the person you loved lost both of their chances... I should of listened to my daddy after all he has never been wrong so far. was i so blinded by this thing so called LOVE that i could'nt think for myself, is it true what they say that love is like a drug and it can be very addictive. I don't miss what we had No i really don't because I'm not stupied i know that everything has to come to an end and i shouldnt try to run my own life i should just let god handle it. but I so still wonder why it had to happen to me, maybe its because i had left david to be with you.... and in breaking his heart, god was teaching me a lesson, or could it be when i broke, pon pons heart.. well what ever it is i know that everything happens for a reason and the sooner i can learn to forgive you the better i will live my life... Its crazy that when i'm trying to stay single Guys all want to aske me out.. its to bad they dont know my story.. hey cant understand the pain i'm going through... while listening to the preacher preach i heard something inside me keep reminging me that everything in this world has a reason and while i doint understand what is going on right know i will be okay.. and i believe that i will. and pulse when a soldier get hurt in Battle it takes time to recover and that all I need is more time.... I don't miss the sex, but i do miss what i thought was a friend to me even though i was wrong... I wanted the best for you.. so how do i recover, I should of listend to my daddy, then maybe i wouldnt be in this sitution.. to start after all he has been there and he has broken many hearts... I hope I recover soon.. I dont always feel this pain.. it on those days when i'm sitting and looking at those pictures from my gradution i begin to cry.. but today i have deleted all of them in hoping that will help me forget about you.......... Karma is a bitch and i'm letting it handle it...
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