He Lied and Cheated October 22, 2008 - Wednesday 12:26AM

The hardest thing that a young woman or man will have to go through is fallling in love with someone who doesnt love them back. trust me when i tell you this it hurts like hell. you want to stop thinking about the person, but it seems almost impossible. Well hello my Name is lily and i used to love this guy with all my heart it felt like we were a match made in heaven. the days we spent together and the fights we had meant nothing. i trusted hime with my life i thought that he would always have my back. we had been friends before we bacame lovers so i thought that our friendship would have been strong enough for him to able to tell me anything but i was wrong... he lied, cheated, and broke my heart... my brother, my bestfriend, my lover i wondered for months how he could of done that to me... for him to look at me in the eyes and swear to me and god that he loved and that he wasn't cheating on me. Was i wrong to believe him after all he had been my BESTFRIEND the one that i could have told all my secrets and i knew that i wouldn't be jugded. I thought it would be a mistake for us to start dating and yes i was right NEVER date your friends.. see for me I was okay just having sex with him... i didnt really want the whole relationship thing. we had been doing just fine with me having a boyfriend and him having his girlfriend. but i ask "WHY" di you want to change that if you knew that you were going to break my heart. one can only make so many mistakes... and since i believed in second chances i gave you one.. after all i REALLY loved you with all my heart so i figured you just made a mistake. was i so sary you couldnt tell me about the other girl after all those Years of knowing me what gave you the Idea that i ould mind seeing other people..... I'm christian you muslim you had already made it clear that we had no future as husband and wife so why could you just tell me... well I guess this is the price i pay for falling in love. even though i still think about you. I hope one of these day you and our memories will be in the past.. i ask my friends how i'm soppused to feel noone seems to have answer so what do i do.... today is one of those days where i cry over you..... but i know and understand that this pain can only last for so long... I made a mistake and i have to live with it and My mistake was loving a man who loved someone Else.... Bye ( tears)