Today I didn't die I hope to live more days

-No headlines

-No hashtags

-I ate my bullet simple as that.

-no there was nothing you could of door to help me.

-no you were an excellent friend

- I didn't come to you because I didn't want to be alive

-no there was nothing anyone can do

-yes I had received therapy for the demons that haunted me

-yes I tried. Fucking dam it I tried so hard to stay alive

-for the last 5 years I have lived for my family and friends, for work, for school. 

-I tried to find my pursue of happiness but the darkness that tagged at my heart constantly is what killed me

-I was no longer functional I was simply zooming through day by day.

-I was no longer alive inside

-I got tired. So tired of pretending to be happy

-please know that I have tried a lot to happy, not even happy but simply functional

-you all saw me smiling and laughing and I really needed a Grammy for my acting skills.

-I should of maybe tried harder..but how much harder

-I tried throughout the last 5 years to not kill myself but I couldn't

-do not cry for me

-I needed to die because I could no longer live!

-I promise what ever your beliefs are I am happier and in a better place! I am happier. I am resting in peace.

----the asshole who raped me as a little girl and caused a ripple affect of more rapes happening to me. I hate that you rapists won, you fucking win.. I am no longer a burden to anyone anymore but more importantly I am no longer in pain---

PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR EATING MY GUN!!